My mind is whirling. I have so much that I've been thinking about, dealing with, or hiding from. Now more than ever I feel the urge to turn to food, to seek my favorite comfort. I haven't though. I am VERY aware of it and fighting it with all I have. I SOOOO wanted a peanut butter Twix yesterday, so I told my husband yesterday that today on his way home from work to stop and get me one. I told him NO kingsize, just a two bar pack he can put in the fridge. I like them cold. It's still in the fridge tonight and I am okay, sipping on a glass of wine instead.
Even though I've resisted the urges I have felt my eating slip onto a more lenient path. I am trying to take care of some issues and I plan to focus on my healthy eating this week. Will power will only take me so far, I MUST make the changes needed to deal with life. I feel like this has been the first test and I am happy to at least see it.
On a totally unrelated note....I went through all my clothes & have a huge pile of too big. This is good! I'm torn about what to do with them though. I feel like I should box them up and keep them "just in case", but I also don't want to because this time is suppose to be "it"! I keep wavering back & forth between what I want to be true & all the previous failed attempts. I think if I keep them then I doubt myself, but if I get rid of them then that's silliness based on the past. Help!?!?