I have been on a diet for what seems like my whole life, well at least 22 years of it. I've had some successes in the past, but nothing really in the last 7+ years. I've always been bigger than everyone else, but I'm not sure what I expected at 5'10" and a size 12 shoe. It's always made me feel huge, uncomfortable, and fat! With my age has come understanding and I embrace my size now, just not the fat.
In the last few months (before this blog) I have really struggled with a couple of different inner voices (I'm a bit neurotic too, but that's another blog entirely). One yells at me that I need to lose weight for my health and kids. The other argues, what's the point! I've gained and lost sooooo many times in the past it's hopeless.
Then one day, not long ago, something just changed. Things that people use to say to me, which pissed me off, suddenly rang true. Like the proverbial, "it's a lifestyle change". I need to be healthy & lose weight, but NOT on a diet. That is how this blog and my "journey" came about. I'm fairly certain that it is not going to be easy. I may even fall flat on my face, but I just have to pick myself back up and carry on.
Right now I am nowhere near the physical level or weight I would like to be at, however that doesn't mean I cannot live like the person I want to be. I want to stop avoiding life because I think I'm too fat & can't do it. How would i know if i dont try? I also have to remind myself daily that food is about moderation, I will not starve (nor am I even coming close to it). My journey might be a long one, but I will get there, moving forward one step at a time!