I woke up today really mad at myself and disappointed. Then I realized that it was all just a dream. I had dreamt that I was having the "I don't really care, what's the point, it's just one meal" attitude. It seemed so real! When I took a step back I realized that I was having these thoughts for real a lot this week. I didn't act upon them and I have eaten the correct amount of calories all week, but I have pushed it to the utmost limit.
The problem could be that I have been extremely busy this week. I've got stuff going on personally with family and have tried to make time to help and do what I can. I've also been volunteering at my kid's school for a fun walk on Friday and a big meet the teacher sort of carnival bash tonight. All this on top of the normal things I do and my big craft room redo/reorganization. I've been allowing myself to get too hungry in between meals. That is when those thoughts creep into my head and I have to watch myself really closely until I get some food into me. I've made it so far, but maybe my subconscious is telling me that I need to check it out a bit closer before it goes too far.
I think I need to take some time next week to focus on me and my journey. To remind myself that I can live my life right now how I want it to be in the future. I may not be as fit as I want or weigh what I want to right now, but I will be there someday if I live today like I already am.
Do what you always do and get what you always got...NO MORE!!