Weigh Day

Just a quick post to check in and let you know how I did last week.  I was down 3.4 pounds, making my total now 28.2.  Now while this number makes me really happy, I haven't felt much like celebrating today.  My son and I both had the flu today!  It didn't really hit until today after I weighed in, so I am pretty confident that my loss is a true number.  I already plan on making sure I do well this week though, just in case.  I also need to focus on my water again this week, because I was busy last week I seemed to lose focus on it.

You Are Not My Friend

I've recently wondered if I was having issues (as in I feel like I may puke and die) when I eat eggs and today I believe I have confirmed it.  I had two eggs for breakfast and have felt awful all day.

I had a similar thing happen the last time I lost a substantial amount of weight, but it was avocados.  It makes me feel like I have the cold sweats, burps, and a general I am going to be sick feeling.  I think it is my gallbladder, but why when I am losing and getting healthy and not when I was just eating crap? Any ideas, anyone??

I really like them both, but they are not my friends anymore!!

More Randomness

I woke up today really mad at myself and disappointed.  Then I realized that it was all just a dream.  I had dreamt that I was having the "I don't really care, what's the point, it's just one meal" attitude.  It seemed so real!  When I took a step back I realized that I was having these thoughts for real a lot this week.  I didn't act upon them and I have eaten the correct amount of calories all week, but I have pushed it to the utmost limit.

The problem could be that I have been extremely busy this week.  I've got stuff going on personally with family and have tried to make time to help and do what I can.  I've also been volunteering at my kid's school for a fun walk on Friday and a big meet the teacher sort of  carnival bash tonight.  All this on top of the normal things I do and my big craft room redo/reorganization.  I've been allowing myself to get too hungry in between meals.  That is when those thoughts creep into my head and I have to watch myself really closely until I get some food into me.  I've made it so far, but maybe my subconscious is telling me that I need to check it out a bit closer before it goes too far.

I think I need to take some time next week to focus on me and my journey.  To remind myself that I can live my life right now how I want it to be in the future.  I may not be as fit as I want or weigh what I want to right now, but I will be there someday if I live today like I already am. 

Do what you always do and get what you always got...NO MORE!!

When I Was A Child

My parents told me… That if I was going to do something then I should do it right the first time.  I think that is why I'm a bit OCD and if I don't think I can do something at 100% I don't try.  I'm sure now that what they meant was just give it my all. I am trying to learn as I "grow up"that it's ok, if my all is only 50% at least I could be 50% smaller than I am now. :)

I wanted to grow up to be a… spoiled rotten princess.  I came close!

I refused to eat… meat.  I really didn't learn to enjoy the deliciousness of meat until after my 1st daughter was born.

My favorite thing to do outside was… probably ride my bike, however, if it was hot outside you would find me inside.

I broke my… nothing!  I waited until I was 32 to break my ankle.

I liked to wear… really, really large earrings.  At the time I also had three holes in each ear and things could get a bit obnoxious.  School pictures are very entertaining to look at.

My parents always… bowled.  Several times a week and they were good.  I might be sorta good myself, but who's bragging.

I thought that Santa was… old.  We sat on his lap every year at the Karcher Mall.  It was the same one every year and he even had a real beard. 

My favorite cartoon was… Captain Caveman and Scooby Doo

I was the… smart, good girl.  I only hope that my kids are like I was, then I won't have much to worry about.

I got in trouble when… I really don't remember getting in trouble much.  Remember the last one....I was the good girl.

My bedroom was… wallpapered with shopping sacks and Mylar balloons.  I use to have a collection of sacks from everywhere.  I must admit I just recently (within the last month) finally threw away the box of them.

My favorite food was… pasta!!  It still is too, which makes it hard to lose weight.

My parents always made me… clean my room after school every day.  I was really good at putting things in my closet and nightstand drawers.  I might have even broke my closet doors.

My first crush was… on Jeff Kendall in 4th grade.  He even came to my birthday party.

My favorite toy was… a little yellow school bus that opened up and had little people inside.  I also use to sit on it and ride it around the house.

I thought school was… boring and a lot of drama.  I am now dealing with the drama of a daughter in 5th grade.

My biggest fear was… thunderstorms, I hated them with a passion!!  Now I love them and think they are cool.  I was also afraid to stay the night away from my parents for what seemed like forever.

My favorite story was… I didn't like to read back then and was too busy doing other things to have a favorite story.

My favorite memories… Going to look at Christmas lights with my entire family in an old car every year.  Spending time at the cabin in McCall.  The Hagen's house and all their cool board games.  My Grandma Marian and my Mom running all the time and my Grandpa taking videos of all those runs.

This was a fun little post to do and to share a little about me with you.  I cannot remember who's blog I saw this on first and got the idea, but I have seen it on several and it is always fun to read.  I hope you enjoyed.